Little Book of Bella

[BELLA SWAN]

bellamarieswan

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These people are torn, Wild and bereft
Assassin is born
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Dear Diary,

Uh. So, hey. I don't even know where to begin a diary. I've never had one in my life and only got you because I read somewhere that having a diary with you fill with you everyday things it relaxes you and helps out with making up your mind and all that rubbish. Well, I'm trying it out because, well my life it over the top. And I mean over the top. So let me get this clear before I write in here anymore;
Vampires, werewolves, werelions, wereleopards & hybrids are real. Don't ask anything, don't start closing the book saying this girl is a crazy chic, no, get over it and believe what I just wrote. Ok?

Anyway, my boyfriend Edward and I... I'm confused. I know I love him but I can't stop thinking of Jake. Darn it! His name brings me out in a sweat. 
I love Edward, I do. But ... Well things have been crazy for me. Ginny and him went out at some point and he began liking her. And now... I'm getting the wrong signals from him.
Well with Jacob... All I want to do it see him! The other day I was trying to stop myself from kissing him. I need to get a grip. Is it hard to get a grip? Apparently so.

And then, I keep asking myself.... Does Jake STILL love me? Does he have any feelings for me? Does he think about me? I don't know why I keep asking all these things! I made my choice didn't I?  
Ah, why must these things happen?    

Bella

credentials

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This template was designed by jade at caution 
the lyrics at the top are from the song assassin 
by the enigmatic muse gotta love em huh please 
don't remove this and claim it as your own, it's mean
and downright disrespectful if i find out you have... 
i'll have to come and slap you silly hehe
IMAGE - BlairChuckFan
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[BELLA SWAN]

bellamarieswan

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These people are torn, Wild and bereft
Assassin is born
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Dear Diary,

OK, so this is like my... second entry? Well that sucks. I wanted to at least have filled this book with five entries by now.

You are not going to believe who I met the other day in the pouring rain. Alec. He wants me dead and he happens to be here in Folks. Great isn't it? Now I'm panicing because I don't think I'm ever going to become a vampire, because, Well, you have read my first entry? Yeah, I think I like Jake. And he's a werewolf not a blood sucking vampire and I'm not meant to know about vampires. At all! And the whole part of the freaking deal that we made with Aro was to turn me into a vampire, but how when I don't want to even be a vampire instead I want Jake's arms wrapped around me. Uh, why think about Jake at a time like this? Did I tell you that I haven't told Edward about this? I haven't told him about Alec? Yet I will happily write in how I want Jake's arms around me. Sorry, I said I was going to stop writing about him. It will help clear my mind.

OK, soo. Trying to clear my mind. So. Alec came to Forks and, well, I'm worried for my father. What happens if Aro decides now is now? You know, to rip out my heart? I know Edward or Jacob someone won't let that happen. They will protect me till the end. I know that but, well, what if they CAN'T? What if they die trying to save me? Would that be something I would be happy about living on with? I couldn't bare to see Jake dead. It would kill me...

Bella

credentials

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This template was designed by jade at caution
the lyrics at the top are from the song assassin
by the enigmatic muse gotta love em huh please
don't remove this and claim it as your own, it's mean
and downright disrespectful if i find out you have...
i'll have to come and slap you silly hehe
IMAGE - BlairChuckFan
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