Post by jasper on Mar 20, 2011 16:27:08 GMT -5
Yo Ho, haul together, Hoist the colours high,
Heave Ho, Theives and Beggars, Never Shall We Die!
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Sighing, Jasper tried to block out everything, to ignore the bloodlust, to make it go away. He hated it, why did he need to continuosly murder millions. Now, he was waiting, waiting for Edward's verdict. If this were a human court, there would be so many crimes against him. The many murders would be the death penalty, and Jasper sometimes did wish that he could die, only Alice gave him reason to live. But he had a worse punishment, which suited him. Living, when he couldn't live with himself. "I can't go back... Newborn... Bree... I can't let her see me... I'm meant to set a good example..." fretted the battle scarred vampire. It felt wrong to call her newborn, now that he had acted like one.
Edward's hand holding his was good, comforting. It made him be able to keep focused on what he should be doing, keeping away from what he shouldn't drink. Moving slowly, Jasper's hand tightened around Edward's, so he could concentrate on the vampire and not the blood. He wanted to go home, not stay here amoung the stench of death. Please can I go home... he thought to his brother, not sure whether to speak aloud at the moment or not. His crimson eyes were so bright, Jasper was sure he would scare anyone who say him.
Moving as Edward walked him out the house, Jasper felt dreadful, and he wondered what had drove him to kill so many. They seemed to be taking another path, becuase Jasper couldn't smell any more corpses. "How bad was I? What... drove me to do it...?" he asked, not sure if he could remember everything exactly. He was sure that Maria had been there, but she couldn't be there... and he couldn't be... so easily manipulated? Could he?
To Jasper, it appeared that Edward was being especially careful. Especially when Edward opened the door for him. Silently, te vampire slipped in and his crimson eyes fell on the present he had go for Alice. He wanted to die, why did he always fail. He only wanted to please Alice, and he always failed her. Hanging his head down, Jasper wished he could cry, his hands clutched his head and Jasper didn't focus on Edward or the moving car, he just focused on the sorrow that flowed through him and the anger at himself. Jasper didn't want to let his power work and end up with Edward feeling the emotions, but it was hard to keep them under control. Jasper moaned quitely as the emotions rolled through him, but he wanted them, he wanted to feel the pain.
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Tags:Edward
Outfit:Blood stained
Lyrics:Hoist the Colours
Notes:I was less than 100 words away from completeion when I lost it all!
Complete:Complete
