Confused (Jacob)

[BELLA SWAN]

The weather for once in Forks wasn't cloudy or chucking it down with rain. In stead there was a sun beaming down on Bella as she wandered along in blissful silent as the soft breeze came through her open truck window which ruffled her long brown hair. She was mildly surprised at the march weather which was in Forks today she was expecting rain all day like they said on TV. But then it shows you that you shouldn't all ways believe in the TV. 
She drove her truck with the radio off, she wasn't in the mood for listening to songs. But as she drove to Jake's she couldn't help but think of him. 

Now Bella loved Edward, but recently things between them have been... Different. When ever they joke it was like she was joking around with a friend not her boyfriend. Whenever they touch she didn't feel a spark or something screaming at her to kiss him. No. She didn't notice at first but now it was like a pain in her heart when Bella is with him. Instead now all those feelings had moved on. Moved onto Jacob Black. His name sent sparks down her spine just like Edward's used to. And when ever she saw him she couldn't help but blush at times. 
Uh. Blushing is so... Me. I mean any girl WOULD at least try to contain that blush. Bella thought as she felt her cheeks go red of the thought of Jacob's grin. She just didn't understand what was happening and now all she wanted was to see him, feel him, listen to him. She must have taken a crazy pill or something. 

As Bella turned into Jacob's place she found her heart beginning to beat louder at full blast. She was surprised the ground didn't shake below her. Se prayed that Jacob was in, she wanted to see him but then he always seemed to be busy with the pack or school. 
Slamming the door of her red truck shut she began heading towards his house.
 "Jake?!" Bella called as she walked up to the door. She knocked lightly not wanting to disturb Jacob if he was sleeping. There was no answer and Bella bit her lip sadden by this. Darn it! Where the HECK is he? Bella wondered turning and heading back to her truck. Bella walked slowly back though before she went into her truck she called again thinking maybe he's in the barn where he works on car parts. "Jakeeee?" She shouted without a call back 

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[JACOB BLACK]

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Jacob had just come off of patrol. He was slightly tired but he couldn't get his mind off of his trip to Port Angeles. He had seen Ginny once again. Why was he even thinking about her so much? Surely he hadn't seen a Hybrid before, that was just strange. But then there was Bella. His love for her had been there too long to just suddenly be replaced. Also Ginny seemed to be liking Edward as well. Everything was just getting too confused. Jake entered his house and went straight to the kitchen. He was pretty hungry. Billy, his dad, had left him some lasagna in the microwave. He heated it up and it was gone in almost three minutes. His mind kept on moving between the two girls though. Bella was someone he always thought about though, he loved her and it was as simple as that. He just wondered how long he was going to be able to wait for her. Until her heart stops beating.

Going into his room he changed into a pair of jeans and a black t-shirt. He liked to look somewhat respectable. He had finished his car finally and didn't really have much to work on in the garage, but it didn't mean he didn't love it in there. It was like his own private place where he could just relax. He did have so many good memories in there. Of course he remembered when Bella hadn't been to see him for a little while and he kept imagining hearing her truck coming up the drive. He could hear it in his mind right then. He ignored it and tried to come back to the real world. Running a hand through his thick hair he smiled slightly. He loved it in here. Getting out a can of soda he started drinking it. Both of the motorbikes were still sitting in his garage but he rarely touched Bella's. He would let Bella sort it out when she wanted to.

He sat down on the bucket he used as a seat. There was a sofa in there. He was working on a scooter thing for Quil. His family had given it to him, not that he really needed it. But it was too slow for him so Jake had started to work on it to make it move at a faster pace. Moving slowly he got out his tools and started working. Then he heard something outside his barn. Footsteps were coming toward the place. He was sitting in the corner behind the scooter therefore he was out of sight. He knew that voice anywhere. She called out his name, she was actually here again. He stod up. "Bells? I'm in here behind this stupid looking scooter" He got up though and edged around it. Then he saw her and a smile broke out over his face. He walked up and hugged her lifting her off of the ground.

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[BELLA SWAN]

Bella sighed an kicked a stone getting ready to head back to Charlie who she had told she would be visiting Jake. He seemed pretty overjoyed about this, and Bella was no detective but she knew her father disliked Edward strongly. But then he blamed Edward for leaving her making Bella have nightmare every night, He was scared for Bella went this happened. 

Just as Bella was going to hop into the truck and drive home to her father she heard a voice which she longed for. The word 'Bells' stood out and she found herself blushing just at the sound of him saying it. Bella felt a heat of rage run through her as she blushed. For crying out loud she wasn't a girly girl! Girly girls like Jessica always blushed when a guy talked to them and by no means was Bella going to be a girly girl. That would be just ... Crazy . But it didn't help that when she heard Jacob call her name she felt her heart do some floppy thing. 

Bella couldn't help but blush even more when she saw Jake's face. She tried shooing the blush away praying that Jacob wouldn't see it as he ran up towards her. "Jake!" Bella cheered as he hugged her, lifting her of the ground. Bella couldn't believe he was holding her. It felt so warm and right the way he held her that Bella couldn't help but laugh in her voice. When Jake placed her down she grinned at him. Taking his face and features in and then her eyes trailed down to his lips. What would it be like to be kissed by those lips? The thought occurred in her mind though Bella had kissed Jake a number of times in the past. It felt right when they ha last kissed, she wanted to feel that right again. She wanted Jake's body against hers. Whispering words in her ear.

What about Edward? A small voice cried and Bella bit her lip in shock that she had been thinking of kissing Jacob while she knew that she was in love with Edward. Or was she? Did she want to kiss Edward like this? 
FORGET EDWARD! YOU'VE SEEN HOW HE LOOKS AT GINNY!!! Her heart screamed and Bella knew it was true. She had seen the way he looked at Ginny, the way he smiled at her. The smiled was like the one he used to give her until... Something happened between them. And Bella could not say she didn't think Ginny and Edward were sweet together. They were VERY sweet together.
KISS HIM! It screamed at her breaking her thoughts of Ginny and Edward. 
Bella pulled towards the barn trying to contain herself. You do not want to kiss Jacob. She kept telling herself over and over again. 

"The bike is that bad?" Bella asked grinning at him as they walked towards the barn but she really wanted to say, "Jake, I think I'm in love with you!"
 Her heart hadn't stopped telling her to kiss him but nor did her head stop telling her to not kiss him.  There was another problem with her wanting to kiss him; she wasn't sure if he still liked her in that way and along with the fact that... Well, Jacob may not have imprinted on her and this means when the right girl comes... 

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[JACOB BLACK]

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Jacob could feel how he wanted to just sit down and fall to sleep. He could of as well but he didn't want to. There was something nagging at him to stay awake. He had no idea why though. He shrugged it off and ignored it. Being in the barn was something that had great memories. Before everything happened. Before all the vampire and werewolf stuff took over his life. When it was just him and Bella. He remembered the first time he saw her after Edward had left. The memory alone was enough to want to cause anyone or anything pain. She had been a wreck. But slowly she began to depend upon him and this got better. If Edward had stayed away just a few more months Bella would have been his in an instead, if only.

When Jake moved around from the bike slash scooter thing, he noticed that she was blushing a little. She always did that. When ever there was something that she didn't want someone else to know, she tended to get a little redness appear in her cheeks. It was seriously cute. Bella said his name back and it brought a smile to his face. It was so good to just have her back in his arms. He knew she belonged there. He thought about Ginny for a moment. He didn't know about her but he was pretty darn sure about his Bella. He spun her around in a little circle before putting her down again. She normally hated being picked up by him but now it seemed she didn't mind. That was always a plus. She was obviously in a really good mood. Jake loved it when it was like that.

Bella seemed to want to do or say something to him. But he knew better than to pressure her into saying something, it ended up with stuttering and blushing. She never liked it. Jake just let it go. She led him towards the inside of the barn. He pulled the bucket around the other side of the bike for him to sit on. There was a small chair for Bells to sit on. Bella asked him if the bike was that bad. "I don't even think it can be classed as a bike. A mini scooter probably. Quil doesn't like how slow it goes" Talking and just hanging out with Bella was as easy as breathing. She knew that as well. Sometimes he figured she only came around here when she needed to get away from her actual life. Not that Jake minded one bit. It was nice to just have her around. That was all he could ever ask for.

He noticed that there really was something going through her mind. Jake just knew her that well. Knowing each other for so long tended to have that effect on you sometimes. He smiled at her anyway. "Are you ok? Looks like you got something on your mind?" He asked her carefully. He didn't want to push but he hated to see her get herself all stressed out. He was keeping people like Ginny out of his mind. Looking at Bella it was easy, but when he turned away there was always something there in the back of his mind. It was how he knew he was extremely tired. He couldn't keep control. He decided to not bother with the scooter and turned around to face Bella. Gosh what was it about her that made him go crazy for her all over again. She knew he loved her anyway.

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[BELLA SWAN]

Jake's barn was in Bella's view the most prettiest barn ever. She didn't care that it was full of car parts and bits of rubbish here and there meaning there wasn't a spot to sit. The barn kinda reflexed Jacob in a weird way- messy but welcoming. Whenever Bella came to the barn with Jake she felt at home.

Bella sat down on the small chair in the barn for her. She lead forward so then she could get a better look at the bike which she had to agree with Jacob  looked like a scooter.
"So, is super Jake fixing it up so then it can go faster?" Bella asked laughing a little. She loved hanging about with Jake, he kept her insane and on the right track and Bella knew without him she would have gone crazy with all this vampire thing going on. She would have died when Edward left her and Jake wasn't there to bring her back to life. When Edward left it felt like all had died within her, but when she was around Jake... Well it began healing and now.... She could feel it screaming for him and she was stuck with a choice. Or not one if Jake had moved on or had gotten himself imprinted. The thought of Jake with another made Bella want to die, the pain she felt in her heart twisted and she felt sick. What if Jacob had already found someone? 

Bella found her heart stop as Jake asked her if she was OK. Darn it! She thought biting her lower lip. now what are you going to say? You don't even know if he's moved on from you yet! Don't say anything about wanting to kiss him!
"Um. Nah, I'm fine. Just thinking about ... Things." Bella said as Jacob turned round to face her. Bella had always thought Jacob had a pretty face but now he was facing her she could see she was so wrong. Jake didn't have a pretty face, he had a very handsome face. Pretty had nothing to do with it. 
And then as he looked into her eyes she found herself blurting out, "Have you  imprinted on anyone yet?!" 
Bella could feel her cheeks burning now as Jake looked straight at her. He was probably shocked and surprised at what Bella had said. She couldn't blame him and to avoided his eyes she looked down at the ground. Why had she said that? Why hadn't she kept it in? Asking if he had been imprinted yet was like asking someone if they are dating someone. 
Way to play cool, Bella. She thought bitterly at herself, she felt like really kicking herself hard. Now what? Going to tell him how badly you want him? What about Edward? 

Bella felt bad for wanting to kiss Jake and to ask him if he was imprinted specially when she and Edward were meant to be in love. But things have changed and as fast as Bella's feelings for Edward had come they had gone. True she still felt something towards him but... It wasn't what she felt for Jacob. It was less powerful from what she felt for Jake and Bella feared that she could be losing the plot.

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[JACOB BLACK]

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Jacob watched Bella out of the corner of his eye. He didn't want to seem to be stalking her every move, that might just get a little weird. There was something about her today that was sending him on edge though. Of course just being around her lifted his spirits. Yet he knew the love she held for him wouldn't be enough. She would always choose Edward which killed him inside. Jake sighed a little. He hated imagining them together, he remembered last year when Edward has kissed her right in front of him just to piss him off. That had been annoying. Didn't mean that his feelings would change though, Bella will always be a huge part in his life. Until her heart stops beating. Well maybe even after then, he would always be waiting for the day when she chose him.

Bella began to be her usual joking self as she entered the barn. She seemed to relaxed and at home here. Maybe it was because of all the memories that they both shared. It was a bigger reason for Jake to feel better that was for sure. He loved it in here and now her scent would linger in here for a little while. Bella asked if he was going to fix it up. "Well there isn't really anyone else who is as great as me now is there? Quil practically begged me" He said it smiling. He isn't really all that big headed, he just liked to mess around. "I'll finish it later though. For now let's just hang out. Do you want a drink?" He asked her out of common courtesy. He smiled in her direction, there really was something up with her that she wasn't saying obviously. She was trying to hide it, which never worked for her.

He watched as she blushed crimson, he loved it when she did that. It was simply adorable. He smiled at her but let her continue. She said she was fine he looked at her as if to say you can't lie to me. "Come on Bells. I know you" He said. He wasn't stupid and knew something was bothering her. She wouldn't even look at him now. Then she blurted out asking if he had imprinted on someone. She looked at the ground. He chuckled at her crimson. Scooting forward so he was crouched down in front of her he put his finger under her chin and tilted her head up. "This is what's bothering you? Bells, you'd know if I had. I wouldn't be sitting here with you. Yet why would I want to be anywhere else?" He asked her with a smile on his face. He would never kiss her again like he once did. Doesn't mean something wasn't screaming at him to.

Bella just looked so confused. He rolled his eyes at her. He stood up. The small sofa he was sitting on wouldn't really hold the two of them, it didn't stop him though. "Oh move over you" He shuffled her over and sat on the edge of the sofa noticing how terribly close they were. He wrapped an arm around the back of the sofa and smiled down at her. She was simply the most adorable person in all the world. This small time let her drop his gaze if she needed to. This way he wouldn't be overwhelming or over crowding her and giving her time to think. Jake just wondered why would she want to know if he had imprinted? Surely she knew how he felt about her? What difference did it make when she had her perfect Edward. Was there trouble in their relationship now?

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[BELLA SWAN]

Bella wasn't sure if Jacob knew what was happening between her and Edward. He probably had no idea believing that all Bella wanted was Edward but that wasn't true anymore. She didn't want Edward. She wanted Jake yet she was so freaking scared that he would turn to her and say he's found another... Edward and Bella were over, he had gone out with Ginny and she felt very confused about them now. Did he care or like her, had he lost all feelings for them. Bella knew that she had and now she always thought about Jacob, and she needed to know somethings before it gets to out of hand.

Bella rolled her eyes at him in a lighting way as he went on about Quil begging him to make it go faster. Bella too was amazed at the things Jake could do and  she wasn't just talking about shifting. She meant fixing bikes and such. He had a pure talent for it. 
"Gotten a little big headed have we?" Bella joked grinning at him making sure he knew she was joking. She loved hanging around at Jake', the memories they had shared together and what they had. The feelings, but Bella was a fool and left him for Edward. She must have broken him that day, and how did she know he stilled loved her?
"Nah, I'm good. Thanks anyway." Bella said answering his question. 

Bella heard Jake chuckle and Bella knew at that moment he had seen her flaming red face. He probably thinks it's the funniest thing on earth. Bella thought wanting to cry at her cheeks. Why couldn't they be normal? Instead the were red, boiling hot cheeks that aways blushed. Always. 
Bella felt his finger tit her head up so that she was now looking back at him. She felt confused when she told her he wasn't imprinted yet and he also conformed to Bella that he still had feelings for her.
Her heart sang at this news. He stilled like liked her and that means well... Maybe they would work out? 
"I don't know, I just..." Bella said but couldn't find the right words to go on. 

Bella gave him a smile as she shifted up further along the sofa stopping where there was no more room to go. He sat down next to her Bella saw with happiness that his arm was around her. Ok, around the sofa, but it was still close. Jake wanted to know what on and Bella wanted to tell him how she felt. Signing in confusion she rested herself on his shoulder hoping her didn't mind. 
"It's just... Things are muddle up. Edward seems to be keen on someone else and I well I, I like someone else." She said picking her words carefully. She didn't want him knowing just let that she liked him but be could probably guess by the way she had been acting around him. Blushing whenever he looked at her, blurting out imprinting stuff and just coming over to his place.

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[JACOB BLACK]

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Jacob watched Bella carefully. There are something about her that he just couldn't keep his eyes off of her. There had always been something there between them but not both of them had admitted it. He wondered if she still had those small feelings for him. She had admitted that she loved him. Of course then everything had gone to pot after that. She still never told Jake the decision she made but he just kinda figured it was Edward who she had chosen. Jake knew that Bella normally came around here when she wanted to get away from her other life. He was used to it. This time it seemed it was something deeper than that. He wasn't one to push or pressure her into doing something she didn't want to do but it killed him to see that look upon her face. It actually looked like she had been hurt recently and if anyone had, he would kill them.

Jake was used to other people's reactions including Bella when he started to make jokes and such. It was fun to be like that and Bella was normally one who took him up on it. When she rolled her eyes he waited for the slight head shake but it didn't come. Oh well. He chuckled a little and then stuck out his chest. "Me?! Bigheaded!? No way. I'm just the best and people know it. The beg for my talents" He said it with his old goofy smile on his face. It was rare and didn't come out very often anymore. Bella was normally the one who brought it out in him. Well and Ginny recently, but he didn't want to think about that when Bella was sitting right in front of him. Bella refused his offer for a drink so instead he got up and got himself one. He drank most of it but left the rest by Bella because no doubt she would end up stealing it.

Even when Jake was looking into her eyes he could still tell that she wouldn't say what ever it was she wanted to. But the news he gave her back cheered her up just a little. Well that was comforting. He still just didn't understand why she would want to know such a thing though? He thought about talking about Ginny to her but he didn't want to upset her. She seemed to already be that way. He couldn't stand it if he had hurt her even for a moment. She started to say something but then couldn't get the rest out. "Oh Bells" He had always called her Bells for a long time. It was sort of his thing. His tone implied that she needed to tell him because he hated to see her like this. All tongue tied and not being able to say what it was she wanted to tell him.

Bella moved over on the sofa just as he told her to. She seemed to relax a little more. He hoped he had taken the pressure off of her a little by not making her look him in the eyes. If it was easier for her than he would go along with it. As long she managed to tell him anyway. Jake looked down at her and seemed to be happy at their closeness. Normally she was uncomfortable because Edward wouldn't have liked it. This was new. She moved over and rested her head on his shoulder. He put his chin on her head and wrapped his arm around her. He didn't want to make her too hot. Jake felt himself go slightly stiff at her words. She had already moved on? How could Edward even think of letting her go?! Jake thought about getting angry but didn't want to hurt Bela so he calmed down. He took in a deep breath and swallowed hard. "Are you alright? Do I know him? The guy you like?" He asked carefully choosing his words.

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Bella had always felt bad for the things she had done to Jake. Picking Edward over him, leaving him to go and save Edward, and other down nasty things. At the time Bella knew she needed to break someone's heart. She knew that, but she had always believe Jake would easily pop back up. And he did. Much stronger than before too, and he wanted her more than before. Which scared Bella. Not because she didn't love him but it sometimes was hard to believe he didn't hate her for knocking him down. And now she was finding things hard he was there for her. What would she do without him? Why did she so many times knock him down? And why on earth did he still want her? She wasn't even pretty or clever. It boggles her mind in how he wanted her, the times he threaten Edward to look after her, to care for her. And she would just fire at him. Was she crazy? Well, It was hard for Bella not to think she was. Turning down Jake and now she wanted him, why couldn't she make up her mind. It's the family gene... She thought bitterly.

Bella felt better for joking with Jacob. He aways was so normal though either one weren't. It was easy just to hit himm gently and to joke around like a bunch of muppets while others would watch in shock at what unfolded before them- a human and a Werewolf going completly crazy for fun. Bella was surprised Edward hadn't stepped in already.
"O hail Jacob the mighty- for his great talents." Bella laughed shaking her head as she laughed. She hadn't laughed for a while, it felt good to let herself get out and laugh like a mad man. To laugh with Jake and allow him to get to her. It was nice... It made a change from most time just to let out that laugh Bella hadn't heard for a while out.

Bella felt her heart melt as he looked at her. Was he so cluess in what she was saying to see what she meant? She had just asked him if he had imprinted on anyone yet and couldn't see that she was burning to tell him all about how she felt. Maybe she was better at twisting out words than she thought. Or maybe Jacob was just bad untwister, unable to understand what she meant or means. Jacob... Wake up please? Understand what I mean? What I feel for you... Bella thought looking at him pleadly. Though when he said the word 'Bells' Things seem a little better thought not by much. He was still calling her 'Bells' not Bella or Isabella which made a change from what others called her. Plain Bella was sometimes boring and to have a different nickname from what others called her was nice. Better than nice when it came from Jacob.

Bella couldn't believe Jake sometimes. He didn't get the hint that the guy is him. She had mucked up a number of times bluting out about imprinting and all. How could he not see? In some ways she was grateful for this but in the other way this meant she would have to tell him how she felt.
"You know him very well." Bella said thinking of how close she had come to shouting at him that it was him. "In fact you know him so much better than me. The problem is I have no idea how to tell him."

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